I walked across the stage tonight and finished my 5 year college journey. How weird is that! I am a college graduate and an environmental engineer. I never have to sit in another lecture, worry about studying for finals, go to a lab class, etc again. Why does this feel so unreal then? Why do I feel like I am not ready for this? All I have wanted was to be done with school and now it is here and I don't want it. I am going to miss Norman. I am going to miss the Duffy house. I am going to miss EP. I am going to miss my environmental family and all the friends I have made.
All I can sit here and think about is... Did I make a difference? At the senior recognition dinner for the BSU someone always gives a speech about leaving a legacy on campus and looking back on the people you have impacted. So I sit here and wonder... who did I impact for the Kingdom, who did I help, who is going to remember me as an important person in their life? I can't rattle off name after name of those people but there are many people that have come into my life over the last five years and my prayer is that I have encouraged them, shown grace, and loved them like Jesus. I believe that The Lord used me in ways that I don't even know. So as I leave this town tomorrow as my home and someday return as a visitor I know I have made a difference.
College has been amazing and I am so grateful for the good, the bad, and the ugly that has built me into the women of God I am today. I have learned so much inside and outside the classroom. I have made some of my best friends over the last five years, I have gotten my hear hurt and my ego bruised but I have also learned to heal, I have made colossal mistakes but also sought out forgiveness when needed, I have learned voice control, I have learned that a good long cry is OK, I have learned that asking for help does not make you weak and that Jesus Christ is the only constant in my life. I am so thankful for the different things that The Lord has put in my life and I would not change anything!
I am not positive of every aspect my future holds. I know 7 things leaving college:
1. I am not the same person I was entering college five years ago
2. I will finally NEED a car
3. God has been faithful to meet me where I am
4. I am scared
5. I am going to move to California
6. I am excited for what is to come and the next steps Jesus and I will take together
7. I do not have a job yet and will have to work my butt off to get one!
