Weekend

I just want to share about my weekend!
This last week I just dropped the ball in school... I forgot about assignments and didn't do so hot on a test... I was not motivated at all.

Why do you ask am I struggling in school already?

Simple, I am ready to be done already!!

I have not been in the school mindset and I am reaping what I have sown so far. I just don't want to except what is going to come in the next few months.

Already a month into school and I needed a break.. and thank the Lord I got it. This weekend Caitlin and I took a last minute trip HOME! It was a great relaxing weekend away from a messy Martha, campus, homework and all that comes with being in Norman.
Even though I was still asked at least 5 times what my future holds, didn't get the best nights sleep ever and had to hear from my Daddy about "getting my resume out there" I had a great weekend. 
Caitlin and I surprised everyone by coming home (which they say they had their suspicions about) but we still got them I think. Saturday we got to have some Humphrey Family Fun! All six of us took an archery lesson together out in Plano, TX. It was a really cool experience and we all want to go back again!!!

Right after we went to the range, I had an unexpected visit with my best friend and my God-daughter. Besides seeing family, this was probably my favorite part of the weekend. I had no idea when I headed down on Friday that she was going to be in town and I am so thankful that I got to see them in person (it had been since Thanksgiving). Addison has gotten so big!!

 

Addi even gave me kisses! Which was so fun, seeing as she doesn't really know me haha! I am so glad for fun surprises from the Lord like these!

Oh and I GOT A CHEESEHEAD!! Finally I have my own chessehead! My dad went up to Green Bay for my Grandpa's 80th birthday and he brought the whole family back their own!

 

 

It was a fun one, to help get my mind back in the game and remind me to press on towards the goal of graduation. I am thankful for a family and friends that loves me and give me the push I need!!

 

Paul says it really well to the Philippians:

"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

 



Freedom

free·dom

[free-duh m]

noun

1. the state of being exempt from external authority, or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint

  

In a "free" country what does having freedom look like to me? Do I really understand that I am free... in Christ?

The Lord has brought this concept and this word across my path on several different occasions in the last month.
 

My pastor and I got together on a Thursday in the middle of January, to sift through my future plans. This was the first time I heard it and this is what he said to me:

I have freedom to make a decision.

"I can plan but it only happens because God allows; fight against the myth of control, it is my job to be free."

My decision in May 2013 might not be my decision in November 2013 or February 2014. I am not deciding the rest of my life.

 

Three days later at church Andy spoke about Galatians 5, which the title of first 15 verses is "Freedom in Christ."

He said that freedom is getting to fulfill our desires.

He asked the question at the very end of the service: What would it look like in my life it I were free?

Hearing this immediately brought me back to the conversation we had prior.

 

Two weeks later at Paradigm Church, Nick Cooper was talking about Greatness. He talked about being staying on the path that is marked out for me and the fact that:

 Freedom does not equal Chaos and Order does not equal Bad. If I stay on the path I am free and freedom brings God glory.

I just lost it. I have never felt so defeating in my thinking before. I told myself "I need to stop thinking about my choices needing to be perfect. God has given me freedom in him to stay in Norman, go to Fort Worth, or even trek out to Cali."

 

Last night at ReGroup I approached Andy about this concept again. I said that I was just having a hard time wrapping my mind around picking one and it ending up ok.

Again he told me that I just need to pick. He told me that if one of my options were not wise he would have let me know. He reminded me that the worst thing that can happen is I figure out it wasn't the right thing and I make a change from there.

 

I have had the hardest time wrapping my head around the fact that I can choose. Maybe I am just not trusting myself enough. Trusting who I am in God and how he has shaped me over the last 23 years, to allow me to make this kind of decision and make a good one.

It is not like God has never given me opportunities like this to trust Him before. My sophomore year, I chose between Project Impact in Cali or Denver (which once I decided on Denver I knew it was right). This past summer I had to choose between Cambo or Israel (and I got neither).

 

I can say I think this decision is so much harder for me because it is my future. After going to Devner, I still had school. Same with this past summer, I still had another year of classes left. I was not changing the course of my life in those decisions. But the one thing I keep coming back to is TRUST!

Am I going to trust that I can not mess up what the Lord has for me? He is bigger than any decision I make or am going to make. Am I going to trust that His will is better then anything I could come up with on my own?

 

 

Galatains 5:1 "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."

 

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."